I’ll never claim I know something other people don’t. As cheesy and cornball as it sounds life does get better, if you want it to. The moment I stop my evolution is the moment I disservice myself and ultimately those I love. I claim my mistakes as my own because I believe them to contribute to the dialogue of my higher education in life. They inform who I am, what my intentions are, who i want to be and they force me to acknowledge my boundaries/limitations. So I’m gonna take today to celebrate my vibrant health and the abundance of happiness, gratitude, awareness, compassion, empathy, strength, fear, loss, wisdom, peace and the myriad of other messy emotions I feel constantly. How we treat our bodies directly correlates to how we treat our souls. Undeniably, for myself and those around me becoming present is the best decision I have ever made. Self destruction and toxic consumption and deliverance from pain is a lot easier to adhere to. It is an everyday battle to be in attendance for all the painful, bazaar, uncomfortable, tragic, fucked up things that have ever happened or will ever happen.

I want to have the capacity to recognize & observe that my journey might be informative, even helpful to other people who are going through something similar or different. But I think it’s more important to put aside my fear about being judged or misunderstood or typecast as one specific thing. The fact that I’m sober isn’t really public knowledge, decidedly and deliberately. It’s an interesting and kaleidoscopic decision to share my feelings about something so intimate in a public forum. It feels significant here, now because it’s my 2nd sober birthday. This moment is a representation of who I am on February 13th, 2018. I thought I would start this post by using a pure moment in Oahu amongst nature, with my love.

Courtney love and frances bean cobain